Monday, May 16, 2011

This is the Week...

This is the week - the week I move out of the place I've called "home" - the week I move into my own, beautiful, new place - the week I step gracefully and gratefully from one life into another. 

I never thought such a time would come. I thought I'd be married "forever." But, life isn't always fair; it doesn't always go as planned.

Along this sometimes rocky journey I've learned a lot. I've learned:
  • Who my real friends are;
  • Whom I can trust;
  • My family is my greatest treasure; 
  • I can live on my own and not make a complete mess of things;
  • I can write as many drafts of a story as it takes to get it to where it needs to be;
  • My boyfriend is my love and my rock;
  • My children are amazing beyond my wildest dreams; 
  • I am my own best friend;
  • It's okay to ask for help.
For these lessons, I'm deeply grateful. To those who helped me climb out of the darkness and back into the light, I'm forever in your debt. 

This is the week - the week I take back control - the week I step forward into the rest of my life.  

Each of us is like a diamond, glaring in the light
Yet, blindfolds of our own design keep us in the night
Each of us is like a diamond, tainted, rare, and true
Striving to express our inner souls, our inner truths

Life takes turns we'd not imagined, choices strange are made

A shell game full of love and traitors, painful, aching shame
Our paths, they crisscross on and on, an ancient dance unnamed
One is here and one is out there, random as the rain

Diamonds II (Random as the Rain) by Debra Lynn Lazar, 9.15.2010

15 comments:

Tawna Fenske said...

Congrats to you for moving so gracefully into this next stage in your life. You are an inspiration to those of us in the earlier, ickier stages of divorce!

Tawna

Laurie Lazar said...

Congratulations on this next step in your life journey, Debra Lynn! May you feel grounded and held in your new home enabling you to fly higher than you've ever flown. hugs and kisses, Laurie

Kristina said...

Perhaps the best gift he ever gave you was who you really are... Love you sweetie & have miles and miles if confidence in you!

Amy Sue Nathan said...

Go! Go! Go!

Julie said...

I'm so excited for you, and knew you would find the other side of all of this. You are so very, very awesome. :)

Anita said...

Good for you! I'm excited to watch where your life is going. From my perspective, I think you look brave and strong and smart. Give yourself a pat on the back and a tall glass of wine for me, will ya?

Stacia Kelly said...

As always, so very eloquently said. *hugs* Congrats on the new space and new place :)

Karen Walker said...

Debra, that is huge. It sounds as if you have navigated the detour life threw at you quite well. A boyfriend? That's pretty darn awesome. I wish you more joy and inner satisfaction than you can possibly imagine!
Karen

Ruthanne Reid said...

*HUGS* I know the feeling - and it is a GOOD one. Like finally reaching the top of a hill after struggling so long in the dark, just as dawn is coming, and you can finally walk with your head held high.

Debra Lynn Lazar said...

Thank you, everyone, for your wonderful comments. You guys are the best!!!

Trisha said...

You have a great attitude, and it's good you can focus on all the positives!

Sounds like this is a new chapter in your life and if I were you I'd be excited! :)

Beth said...

So happy for you! A new chapter is begun. :)

hot girl said...

veri nice.

nsiyer said...

Life is empty and meaningless. You are aware. From nothingness, everything emerges including your true self.
Debra, we are here only for a while. Just be and just melt till then.

Laura Marcella said...

Yay, congrats! Such a wonderful poem, too.

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