Monday, July 19, 2010

Moving Forward After The Fall

Strange how sometimes life throws you a punch that you never saw coming; how it smacks you hard and knocks you down for the count. How you feel like you can't breathe, like you'll never be able to take a full breath again, like you're buried alive with no way out. Stranger how you focus on that punch and hold on to it as if your life depended on it - as if that punch and what led up to it is somehow a reflection of you; all the while hoping against hope things will change - go back to the way they were or move forward as if this ugly thing never happened.

Slowly, the proverbial clouds part, the gray skies clear, the sun begins to shine, and you get your bearings again. You see a glimmer of light and feel laughter, hope, and joy rather than tears, pain, and suffering. You realize the universe will take care of you as long as you're willing to take care of yourself. Friends, family, and even pets find ways to lift you up out of your sadness. It's a beautiful thing if you let it be. Life. Possibility. Hope. Tomorrow.

Thank you to those who have lifted me up. My love and deep gratitude can never be properly conveyed.

Perfect Dance

That night I saw you in town
Your wheels were spinning on the ground
You were out running 'round
Round and round...

Love and days pass away
Like living creatures, rippled waves
I watched you walk away
With teary eyes, blinding pain

You never understood me
I tried to tell you every little thing
In your heart, you left me
Broken, bittersweet

I begged you often not to leave
But my words didn't mean a thing
I watched you fade away
As you stepped down and out

How does a perfect dance end
Without a curtsy or a bend?
I look in to reach out
With no doubts, no doubt

You didn't understand me
I told you, but you didn't hear a thing
I thought we shared the same dream
You let me go, and now...
Now I'll set you free

How does a perfect dance end?
Without a curtsy or a bend?
How can one choose to leave behind
A dream-filled lifetime for an empty twisted rhyme?

Words & Music by, Jamie C. Keys (aka D.L. Schubert), 6.22.10

Resilient, that's what we humans are. Be grateful, courageous, and ever generous. Give away all the love you can while you're here, to yourself and others. Namaste.

49 comments:

Kathryn Magendie said...

What's happened? Are you okay? *hug*

Donna M. Kohlstrom said...

So happy to hear that the sun shines in your life now and has dried all your tears. Hugs, hugs...

Jody Hedlund said...

Wow. What a beautiful song, Debra. I'm sure it's even more beautiful when you sing it. Glad the clouds are beginning to part. :-)

Laurie Lazar said...

Oh, you are so beautiful, Debra Lynn. Thank you for expressing your heart's songs and sharing them with the world. How relevant, how touching, how real, and how deeply inspiring. I love you.

Candyland said...

Beautiful...And yeah, life blows sometimes...but that's a part of it-the pain. I understand. It's been a rocky road at times on this end. Just keep going with your head held high and remember all of us who are right here cheering you on.

Karen Walker said...

Deb, you got me crying this morning with these words. Will you share the music that goes along with them.
I am so sorry this happened to you. But from personal experience, there is always light after the darkness. And it sounds as if you've already stepped into it.
blessings,
Karen

Danielle said...

I don't think I've commented on your blog before, but I've been following you for a while now. Just wanted to say that I've been going through a rough time, too, and seeing what you've written has helped me as I've tried to get over that sucker punch that life threw at me a couple weeks ago. Thanks for being such a strong person, and for sharing yourself.

Laura Marcella said...

Beautiful post and song. I'm so happy you're basking in the sunshine and enjoying it again. You're an inspiration, Debra.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Kat, Long story. Email me and I'll share. Thanks for the hug. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Donna, Thank you so much. We all go though difficulties in life and somehow make it through. It's nice to know we're not alone and that people care. Thank for the hugs...

Debra L. Schubert said...

Jody, Thank you, the song is pretty and bittersweet. I appreciate your continued support - it means a lot.

Debra L. Schubert said...

LB, I love you more. Thank you for being my rock.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Candy, Love your comment. Thanks so much for the strength and love that shines through in your words - beautiful and uplifting.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Karen, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry! Maybe I'll vlog it one of these days. Blessing to you as well, my friend.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Danielle, I'm so sorry to hear you've had recent troubles. Feel free to email me anytime at dlschubert@verizon.net if you need to vent. Hang in there. Like Winston Churchill said, "When the going gets tough, keep going." *hugs*

Debra L. Schubert said...

Laura, You truly are a ray of sunshine. I appreciate your words more than you know. ;-)

Christina Lee said...

Oh Debra--this rang so true! I have SOOO been there *hugs to you*

Such a lovely song too!

WendyCinNYC said...

It's a lovely song and says so much. I'm glad you have such a creative outlet for your feelings.

Tawna Fenske said...

Lovely song, and even lovelier sentiment! I'm so glad you're doing better and picking yourself back up so bravely. You'll have to journey back out here to Oregon for a celebratory bottle of wine!

Tawna

Debra L. Schubert said...

Christina, It's nice to know people make it through; a bit dusty perhaps, but stronger and clearer than before. I'm looking forward to that. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Wendy, I am lucky. Songwriting is a gift I treasure. I love the challenge of being thoroughly expressive in only a few lines. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Tawna, I'll let you know when to head out to the liquor store!!! (Hugs as always, and thanks for the RT!)

Vicki Tremper said...

Thank you for sharing your journey back to the light. I need at least several hours to wallow after a punchdown. Sometimes it involves chocolate or wine, sometimes curling up in bed or watching TV. Knowing I'm not alone really helps - I hope that helps you, too. Because you are NOT alone!

Debra L. Schubert said...

Vicki, Thanks SO much for your comment. We do tend to feel all alone when the rug gets pulled out from under us. Wine and chocolate definitely help, but nothing beats a hug - virtual or in person - from people who care. Thanks for sharing - it means a lot. *hugs*

Linda G. said...

Your beautiful song touched my heart, Debra. I'm so glad the clouds are parting for you. :)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Linda, Thank you so much for your kind words. You are a special kind of wonderful.

Robin said...

Sorry to read that things are still so dicey. Of course, that is to be expected. It is not like you just bounce. It SO does not work that way. Your song was sad and lovely. BTW, did you ever get your HERE'S TO YOU THURSDAY dedication from last week? You didn't comment, which makes me think you didn't. I hope you like it.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Robin, I did get it and I tried to comment, but my computer was buggy that day and I forgot to go back and do it. Thank you SO much! Your support is truly amazing. ;-)

Jemi Fraser said...

Beautiful song Debra - got me teary eyed.

Be strong. Take care. *hugs*

Ruthanne Reid said...

That was beautiful. Powerful. I'm so glad you haven't stopped this kind of creating.

*hugs* Sunshine from me to you. Heaven knows we've got plenty of it here.

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Ruthanne Reid said...

Heh. It cut off the url: http://is.gd/dylOq

Debra L. Schubert said...

Jemi, Thanks so much. Hugs right back atcha. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Ruthanne, I heart you bunches. Can't wait to meet in person one of these days...

Sharon said...

I have been thinking about you so much today - not that that is so different from every other day. Seeing your post made me both smile and cry. The sharing of your journey is so inspiring for everyone around you and hopefully therapeutic for you. What strikes me the most is your humble and honest presence in both your sentiment and your songs. Keep on rockin. It is your music (in every sense of the word) that will set you free. I love you dearly XXOOOOO

Elspeth Antonelli said...

I'm sorry you've had trouble lately and I send you several warm virtual hugs! Adopt Churchill's motto: KBO. (keep buggering on) - in the nicest way possible, of course.


Then again, sometimes, life just blows goats.

Fragrant Liar said...

What the hay? I had no idea you were going through something like that (my perpetual stomping grounds . . .). So sorry to hear about it, but I recognize a healing spirit when I see one. Best and big hugs to you.

Kimber

Debra L. Schubert said...

Sharon, I wouldn't want to know what life is like without you. I love you more than I can ever express.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Elspeth, "Then again, sometimes, life just blows goats." This is hilarious! Thanks so much for the laugh. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Kimber, Yeah, like Elspeth says, "life just blows goats" sometimes. I'm still pretty floored by everything, but I will go on and be stronger in the long run. Thanks for your hugs - right back atcha. ;-)

Nancy J. Parra said...

Hi-

Just wanted to say that I always enjoy your blog posts. Thank you for sharing the song and bits of your wisdom.

(((hugs)))

Debra L. Schubert said...

Nancy, Thank you so much. That means a lot. ;-)

Savannah J. Foley said...

It's been a super rough year. A Lemon Year. My fiance left me, my agent proposed condensing three books into one, the guy I was dating turned out to be married with kids, my cat was just diagnosed with cancer and I'm diagnosed with something myself.

So you're not alone <3 Just keep making lemonade from the lemons.

Debra L. Schubert said...

Savannah, OMG - I am SOOO sorry!!! Hang in there - there is always light at the end of the tunnel - or at the end of a Lemon Year...

T. Anne said...

I'm late, but HUGE hug. Be strong, have peace.

Kimberly Franklin said...

Life can suck sometimes, but I'm happy the sunshine is finally starting to show through those clouds for you again. :)

Debra L. Schubert said...

T. Anne, Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. ;-)

Debra L. Schubert said...

Kim, Thanks, my friend. I know you've got my back and I appreciate that big-time. ;-)

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